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Who is aware that I am psychic?  I guess not most.  Not everybody believes so too.

I asked what he wants me to do.  He's told me in my dreams, but I do not accept it.  He wants me to be free.  I am chaining myself down.  How can I do it?  I don't want to forget.  I feel heavy of loneliness.  I feel like bending my own fate.  He answers:

Artist: Europe Title: Carrie

When lights go down, I see no reason For you to cry. We've been through this before In every time, in every season, God knows I've tried So please don't ask for more.

Can't you see it in my eyes This might be our last goodbye

Carrie, Carrie, things they change my friend Carrie, Carrie, maybe we'll meet again somewhere again

I read your mind, with no intentions Of being unkind, I wish I could explain It all takes time, a whole lot of patience If it's a crime, how come I feel no pain.

Carrie, Carrie, things they change my friend Carrie, Carrie, maybe we'll meet again

Carrie, Carrie, things they change my friend Carrie, Carrie, maybe we'll meet again somewhere again

A friend says I'm chaining myself.  Putting myself in a box because of Love.  Love is not selfish.  Love is letting go.  I do want to let go, but I will not forget.  First, I will collect my thoughts of you.. the memories.  Write them down as much as I can, and put it in a place where it would be memorable and a pedestal for me.. but I will not forget you.

I know I need to learn to let myself live.  Others call this "letting go".  I can't do it yet, but I will do it.  I just wanted to know what you want for me and I will do it.  If the love fits wear it baby, if the shoe fits, put it on.  I have heard you.  I saw you when you announced it in my dream.  It made me cry and then rejected it.  And now that I've asked you once again, you wanted to meet in my dream but I refuse.  Now you sing to me.  I'm really sorry its taking me a long time.  But please don't ask me to forget you at once.  I know I have not much time and my fate still lays ahead of me and it will not happen if I cling to you.  I do love you.  When this hurt from loneliness is gone, I will be free.. but I will not forget you.

Artist: Sarah McLachlan Title: I will not forget you

I remember the nights I watched as you lay sleeping Your body gripped by some far away dream Well I was so scared and so in love then And so lost in all of you that I had seen But no one ever talked in the darkness No voice ever added fuel to the fire No light ever shone in the doorway Deep in the hollow of earthly desires But if in some dream there was brightness If in some memory some sort of sign And flesh be revived in the shadows Blessed our bodies would lay so entwined

And I will oh I will not forget you Nor will I ever let you go I will oh I will not forget you

I remember when you left in the morning at daybreak So silent you stole from my bed To go back to the one who possesses your soul And I back to the life that I dread. So I ran like the wind to the water Please don't leave me again I cried And I threw bitter tears at the ocean But all that came back was the tide...