I realised, I won't be alone. I'm not even alone right now.
I'm gonna have to understand, that I do not live alone, and that I should also try to play nice at times. I just don't want to over react, or overdo things, but moreso, level down the uptakes and the pressures. Now, more than ever, I must pick up lessons from what is happening. I must learn to value that everything turns around.. just slowly sometimes and when we're pressed, its because we're at the bottom of the wheel.
I will try to be strong. I'd stick around and try to be the wall where everyone might try to hit or press onto. But that wall's gonna have a heart that can make it recover each time it'll be hit. I'm gonna be strong because I want to be strong and happy for those who need me.. for those who love me.
Going home, I passed by the church. I prayed to Him, just like I was speaking to Him and letting out all the negative things that happened to me today and pouring out my feelings to Him like He was just my bestfriend. I got to understand something. It's really amazing how God truly speaks to you in different ways, but more importantly, He speaks to us through our own prayers.
Finally, I understood that I had to go through a lot for me to take in some changes, push me to shape up and understand my environment and the people inside it. I had to goof up some interview and feel greatly ashamed of it, maybe so that I could try to stay where I am, or realise that there'd be so much if I try to drive myself to be better rather than sticking with what I already know and just stay there.
Thank God, I have ears to listen to you.