Let's give it a try

Its almost a year since I moved into this job. I loved it here because I loved the people first, then I love my job next. The job is dispensable, but not the people. It has always been like that.

Early April, I handed over my first resignation. Of course, they said they didn't want me to go. But, hell, they can't keep me if I wanted to leave. What made me stay was the fact that I believed I can still make a difference. So many people were counting on me to stay and work with them. I had my set of on-the-job trainees, my new developers who were all fond of me and my management strategy. I loved them all. We had time to share ideas with one another whilst we work harmoniously together too.

The latter part of last year became turbulent. We lost some of our teammates, and here we are now, the survivors of that mess, trying to cope with what is remaining for us. Not really being to bragging about it, but the life of the team depended on my strength and willpower to go on. If I would have quitted early on, then there would be no more team to handle. No more work to do. It would simply be the end. And another thing worth noting would be the fact that I just wouldn't be able to find a love like this.

Now, as much as I would have felt exhausted about it all, I handed over my second resignation. Of course, again, they said they didn't want me to go. But it was different this time. The bosses had to fly back here to straighten things out. I know they might just be pulling my leg, but I could be a little smarter this time. Not only must I keep close watch of how things will go about, but more so, this is the time I could show how serious I could be with what I say.

"Let's give it a try", he said. Sure. It will only be a couple of weeks before I see if this is still a place fitting for me to stay. I'll go ahead and do it my way. If I fail, I leave. If I don't, then this is for me. I won't try to please anybody. I'll only do what I do best and without pushing myself to the limit. If it works, then it works. If it doesn't, then it won't.

I won't be sorry I stayed. Neither will I rejoice at this choice. I'll just give it another try.

Maricris Nonato

I turn tech ideas into websites using Ruby. I'm a budding Buddhist practitioner, passionate about health & fitness, and a cat fanatic!