<p>My feelings are indescribable. It is a mixture of love, sorrow, happiness and pain.

How can life be life itself if there are no ups and downs. I will not turn around. I will fight for what I feel and believe, cause that's the way I am. I will not give up until I have done everything. And when everything is still not enough, I must learn to face defeat.

Defeat is not the end, nor is pain the end of everything. It is only the beginning of something new. Something new that might be good or bad. But I will never lose if I love myself well. I will be free and happy as long as I know how to love.

Then, only then will I know I will be happy no matter what.. no matter what.